That second group usually only happens durring certian times. See I probably do have BiPolar, since my mood/personality likes to change depending on the time of year and/or if I've had a "stress crash" (or just change when ever it feels like sometimes), and the Meds I'm on now actually help to some extent with the main BiPolar symptoms.

And while BiPolar fits pretty well with my symptoms, imo, AS fits better, and AS I hear can mimic BiPolar, as BiPolar can mimic ADD (etc). Its all the same imo, shades of gray. We'll see if the doctors will agree with me at some point.

edit, one thing though, that kinda makes me think that the music bits are all just halucinations, the one thing I'm on is a glorified tranqulizer (Seroquel), and makes the music go away, along with my horrible nightmares (so, even though the seroquel makes me groggy as hell, its still worth it.. been having the same damn dreams and nightmares for up to 20 years (depending on the dream), I hate those dreams).

I can use my head as a music player. As I listen to music, I gradually memorize pieces of it; the more, particularly when concentrating, the better I can recall them. I have a ton of music from old console games lodged in my head that often play in the background, among many other things.

As for how it is heard, it is different than "real" sound. The experience is fainter, somehow (how much varies), but can have significantly more "depth" than the real thing at times, thanks to the processing capabilities of the brain. (though it requires a bit of concentration) Going by my experience, I'd say it is experienced in the same manner as things are during dreams, though not as intensely.

Things play automatically, shifting from time to time, as well as according to what I associate with the current situation. Though I can consciously change the track, apply various different effects (half-arsed dynamics processing, equalization, distortion, etc.), as well as use my mind as a synth.

It not only goes on while I am awake, but during my dreams as well. Then, however, it is not only music from real-life, but also (often rather weird) compositions automatically made by my brain, seemingly in real-time, more or less in accordance to what goes on in the dream.

Apart from the occasional, relatively brief pause, the only times it is wholly silent is when I am concentrating on making it so, very deeply relaxed, or listening to "real" audio.

And as for me, I have been diagnosed with both AS and Tourette's.

I got 6 on the first test, 76 on the other (making me neurotypical). which is odd given I ticked most of the boxes for HFA.

On the pre-questionnaire for the aspie one I was trying to figure out what it meant for 10 minutes and still couldn't figure it out, so I got the wife in and she couldn't either, anyone?

'Please imagine you work in a big open plan office. On your way home after work, you realise you forgot something and go back. As you approach the open office door, you see one of your colleagues. He explains the new computer system to another employee, an older woman who will retire next week. How much would what you saw change your opinion of your collegues altruism?'

What's telling someone who's retiring about a new system got to do with your view of his altruism. the only thing it makes me think is that bit of information has nothing to do with being nice and only relevant if she wasn't retiring.

but that's got nothing to do with altruism as he wasn't thinking of her welfare. If he was going out of his way to explain what it was because she was old and still working there, and he thought she might not understand, then I'd understand.

Exactly what I tried to say Lenny

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Just what I want to see straight after breakfast.

My sister had an idea for a female product just like that, but when her and her husband researched it they found it had already been done (as the picture proves).

I took the persons offer to help as not being altruistic at all. Number one it was a waste of time because the woman was leaving and probably didn't care anyway. Number two I thought he was just sucking up to the boss by offering to stay late. So his/her actions negatively effected my outlook toward that person.

Maybe I've just been around more cut-throat office politicking than most...

Except it'll most likely make her life easier for the last week.

Interesting. The question I got was about a woman explaining the computer system to an attractive new male employee. My answer was that it really wasn't my business, that I would be curious if there was an ulterior motive but that I really couldn't begin to say how it would affect my opinion of said woman without knowing how helpful/altruistic she normally was. Which the short story doesn't tell.

If it were me doing it, that would have been correct. Which would give me a slight bias to interpreting the behavior as altruistic.

You know... all these things got me thinking. My former girlfriend had many of these symptoms, but I don't think she was diagnosed at the time (she was seeing a psychiatrist though). I wonder what I'd have done if I'd realised this back then... might have been a bit more forgiving when she stopped answering e-mails and text messages...

Maybe its just me, but you still have a job to do. Just because you put in a notice or are retiring, doesn't mean that they can't fire you for missing work or not performing your duties. In fact, I'll bet many Boss's will be on the look out for ways to take away a retirees pension.

Maybe I care too much about image to do something like that.

Oh its not physical image... Its what people think of me, or really, looking bad. The core of my Social Phobia and anxiety.

edit: It developed later in life.. I started out shy, but once I hit puberty, everything started going wrong
edit2: of course it wasn't just puberty. Life started getting really hectic (divorse, moving, etc) around when I was 8...

Yeah, I saw it, I just chose to comment anyhow

edit,

I wish someone would have explained that sooner I assumed it was just afraid of any social situation and people.

edit2, been diagnosed with it for 2+ years, and didn't know what it really meant. Nice.