I understand long term pain and what it can do. It's a major factor in the state of my mental health. My knees and ankles start throbbing after about 10 minutes of activity and are shards of glass after 20. This has been the case for the last 15 years and I've spent a lot of that working 12-16 hour days on my feet with only a couple of breaks. I also crushed a nerve in my neck that gave me constant agony for two years.
Mostly I just endure all pain as I'm self masochistic. I convinced myself years ago that I have to be in pain to make up for doing something wrong. Every once in a while though, rationality breaks through and then the pain depresses me.
What I meant by taking care of other instead of myself, though, was that I have a tendency to avoid dealing with my life by attaching on to someone else and making them the sole focus of my attention. They become more important to me than myself to the point where I can easily rationalize doing something that will harm myself if the outcome benefits the other person. This is obviously not a good thing.
The other thing I do to avoid life is drink a shitload as well as take a fair amount of other drugs. I'm on medication now that stops me metabolizing the aldehydes that alcohol breaks down to, so if I drink now, I'll get horribly sick. I'm also going to move soon, as I know far too many drug dealers in this town.
I'm hoping coding will cheer me up as well. It's one of the few pleasures I've had in my adult life. I picked up a job today to do a membership database for a non-profit organization, which they're even going to pay for. They don't even care if it takes a while as I explained I was doing it as a learning exercise.
Why do you believe they ever left? The Awesome Power™ of the Tripping Fairies is with you, now and forever, and they will give you the Kingdom, The Power, and Life Everlasting.
They never left, the church just shut down for a while.
4) Smoke less cannabis. (interferes with programming, tbh, and I work for a company in SF now)
This is a big one for me as well. Ironically, the area I'm moving to is known for being one of the major dope centres in the country.
5) Bring Back Exercise. I was doing TKD last year, but stopped in September and didn't replace it with anything.
I used to do TKD, but had to stop after I injured my knees. That was just after I got to red belt.